yes

so im gonna get a ring soon

read the chatbox on the left

fyi, ive never got a ring in my 19 years of life

seriously never

so ima bit chilled

people i want ring for my christmas

ringsss babe

yay

when you feel like you are damned
when you see only plastic hearts around you
when the whole world seems to turn against you
please
im here with you
complain to me i lend you my ears my heart
see the true heart in me
i share everything of you
like i always wish for
cheers =)

为什么男孩总让女孩等待

男孩静不下来的心；女孩的无奈。

当男孩终于看清自己的心，他才发现

女孩不会永远等他

最后才后悔自己当初的胆小

是自己挥霍了女孩愿意守候一生的勇气

后悔，往往都来得太迟

后悔，那又怎样？

im stupid, but you are not clever either
remember what you hide from me today
because you may regret your deed, your chance to save a life
thanks for watching as i fall
you will be getting life of what you have always dream for
before the tigers come, whispering
until the day you scream for hell

i cant help feeling envious
those are all those what i have been longing for
but He is giving me more than i deserve
and one day i can be there telling you
but for now, screams.
but you are deaf

yes this is the movie i really love

about a really talented couple giving birth to a extraordinary talented child

he could write a song when he heard the thumping sound of ppl playing basketball

he could make a chord when he heard the bliss noise ppl made playing the rope

and many more

he could play the songs even though its the first time he had ever seen an organ

the mother was a cellist

the father was a famous rock band singer

however

the father didnt know about his presence

when the grandpa set he and the mother apart

the mother lost him

when the grandpa lied about the abortion

but they just knew

three of them were linked

via music

thumbs up and five star rate for this from me

yay

everybody is studying here

alvin told me he had almost done his preparation

what am i doing

i wish to be away from home

no bed mo gui temptations no lappy temptation

but im stuck at home

and succumb to the temptations

cao

this is not what i want

let me out

screams.

i dont care i dont care

my sister is cute leh muahaha

yay im going to have a baby like this!! ♥
i miss you

i have nothing to update but lamond keeps pestering me to update
i browsed through his facebook and for those who have been surfing facebook you would probably know theres something called social interview in it. i saw question asked to lamond and i super hella damn like his answer.
there it goes.

what would you talk about if you were stuck in a room with president obama?
and his answer: ''did you fuck you wife last night?''

lol lamond, PLEASE LAH.
the end.

i dont know
this song does the magic and i cannot forget
the bliss
it makes me warm
try reading through the lyrics
two is better than one - boys like girls feat taylor swift

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true,
that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time,
to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, believing

Two is better than one.

eh still dare to ask me why
BECAUSE YOU BETRAYED HER, YOU LAPSAP!
flirty boy you are going to burn in hell
i cannot forgive i cannot forget
lapsaplapsaplapsaplapsaplapsaplapsaplapsaplapsaplapsap

dont ask why
you are giving me the reasons not to trust you
you know what you have done
which you wish im stupid enough not to know
but im telling you
i saw it with my bloody eyes

你可能不会知道
彩虹，是你曾经给过我的温柔
就只属于我一个人的温柔
也许 就只是你伪装的爱怜
也许 你心里想的不是我
它也会是我记忆中最宝贝的一页

我要走了
留给我 安慰我的 也只有你的彩虹了
是最后一次 我不会再回来
那么我
可不可以也带着那个彩虹？
我的暂停 就是放弃了
晚安

a hungry man makes an angry man
and a hungry lady makes a crying lady
im hungry
very very very much

colourfudreamscarsnearhohobiteshoppingcomputerregrethaloorange
cantrainbowipraiseperishdryneversaytrustomgfirelovekeyboardyou
cakepatpatwhatthebecauseyouhellshirtshategivemebabyboyfakeplastic
thereasonsssskisseswhorenottoeverytimesorrycantrustyouohohmousey
badhappyinevitablepursuecloseoffgiveandgolosthairbrownredtime
blissbreakhurtxixixicomesitplaydowindyrainyipoormisscommunicate
handphonelaptoprestaurantcisslapyaburningchangepuipuipuiworthless
permenantneverforgetyetforgivelapsapsadcrycrycrycrycrycry

hidden message
im just randomly slamming on my keyboard
if only you would know why im in rage
animal
and no, im not sorry to call you the skanky moron f*****oooooo

i look back through my 353 posts
still, i love my post on 21st august 2008 the most =)

i accidentally pressed the wrong button and my starcatcher blog template is gone D= but i found this one catches my eyes too =D overall i still like the starcatcher template more lo =( im so blur i didnt sleep well last night my stomach got its own temper too oh and since i have already changed my blog template i think i will make little secret changes to the content too hehe its somewhere to be found in here but im sure you are not going to discover all of the changes xixi
hoh im going to bed again after this to get the sleep back
oh text me still, if you feel like doing so. because my phone was like dead for quite a period of time already and that kinda pissed me off :l

今晚
好冷好冷
我不管。
是我太笨
我要冻死我自己
让泪不再流

不要了
不要了
我讨厌你了

[他和她为什么会分开啊？]
[对啊对啊，他们等了对方四年，好不容易确定要在一起了，不到三个月就分开。]
[因为，他不懂得疼女孩子。当她心情低落需要他安慰和关怀时，他不当一回事，敷衍说她神经过敏，就放她在一边不管，让她自己慢慢复原，却不知道她伤透了；当他遇到不好的事，心情疲惫时，他却认为她理所当然应该知道的，希望她能给他鼓励的话，让他再站起来奋斗只属于他自己的世界。最后，她累了，心，也死了。]
[.....他后悔吗？]
[不懂。四年了，多多少少都会有一点吧。]
我茫然。天，又开始下雨了。

--- ET, LY, ZZ [14th october, 2009]

有谁看出我的脆弱
我还有多少爱
我还有多少泪
要苍天知道我不认输
给我勇气让我做我自己

everytime the phone rings and the guy goes rapping, i hope its you
but hardly,
it will be

HAPPY BURSTDAY EUNICE!!

aww im sorry

i was quite unaware today is 12th october

its your bloody day

i cant find your personal photo

but i found ours xixixi

happy birthday girl you are officially an adult now

legal!

happy lantern festival

yes i actually played the paper lantern
alone
but who cares
i was happy
=)

i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you
bah i was told you didnt care
shoo
nah i dont need comfort

you are a mother fucking cow
or pig
or goat
or goose
or fly
or hippo
or camel
in short just a mother fucking animal
im not gonna give a fucking shit on your fucking hell damn behaviour
you fucking jackass
dung skank
yes its you dont doubt
you fucking big fat liar

update:
screw you your affair and your lies

一个人在家，埋头苦干
啃下了三课，抬头
才发现原来早上那么努力
只为了忘记自己是一个人
午餐时间
一个人看着一大锅鸡汤
还以为会高兴没有人会和我抢鸡腿
但原来
想找个人一起吃午餐也难
下午家里
热死人
却也
空荡荡

update:
下午2.26
一个人在房间
风扇的声音好大声
咻咻咻
下雨了打雷了轰轰轰
遮住了耳朵
还是一个人

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA I WATCH THIS LIKE TEN TIMES OVER OR WHAT I CANT STOP THE LAUGHING. "please take off your shirt hooo-hoo-hoo, put your shirt back on" LOL AND THE LAST ONE DAMNNNNNNNNNN HAHHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA IT WILL REALLY MAKE YOUR DAY LAAAAA

if you all have got a facebook account i think you should really view this. really it touches heart.

FACEBOOK MUST-WATCH VIDEO

quote from the video :
when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive.
forgiveness does not change the past,
but it does enlarge the future.



isnt it,
touching?

im sick. terribly. but
................................................ ='(
nothing

3am. in sweat.
no nightmare no reason
just because.
i wish you were here
i miss you
dreamt a little dream

went to kabong with friends. we had lots of fun. reached at about 12 i forgot la we starved because we totally forgot about the lunch. i must say, the inn keeper there looks hell damn lot like tarzan + x man lol im freaked out when he smiled == we played card games in the air con room to get the hunger out of our mind. went to beach at about 4 its frigging hot but we still did lol got our legs soaked in the sea water. joined kie yiik and patrick for the kite flying session. they made new friends there and they taught them to fly the kites. at about 5 we started bbq. i thought it would be hard to get the fire on who knows with the scouters and bb boy around a piece of cake nia. the chicken wings tasted so nice, partially because we were really really hungry. we ate we joked we played we bbq and watched the sunset its really breath taking pretty i dont have the sunset photos damn if you are to watch those sunset by the beach in the movies then you will know what am i talking about. we rushed into the sea when its absolutely dark. about 7 something? pushed kie yiik into the water wet everybody else. buried patrick and ruined his hair LOL fyi, his hair is his most precious protected thing in this world. went back to chalet. bathed and slept
its chilling at night really chilling. stella woke up at 5 something and had a long walk at the beach. kie yiik joined her. i woke up when my phone rang, kie yiik sent me a birthday mms will show below. i wasnt the last to wake up. andy was the lazy bug. we all joined them up at the beach nice view babe. =) thumbs up for the trip

this one is from stella awww

i drew for myself hmph

neh this is the mms kie yiik sent which woke me up

this is a turtle rofl

kie yiik was out of his mind during the trip
i dont know what happened
he got crazy lol

i watched korean movie this afternoon Tsunami. i reckon its great the greatest korean movie i have ever watched. i will definately pay to watch it all over again. but i wonder, in real, would they give their lives to the one they love, willingly? instead of running wild for their own lives sake. the girl cried like a bitch when she lost him and he waved like hes out for work like hes going to be home in hours. didnt he feel like they were going to be parted forever? the little girl cried while looking at the man who saved her life, did she know that hes actually the father? how could she go on?
you have 10 minutes to save the one you love.
will i? idk

a joke

joke title: the reason i fired my secretary

Last week was my birthday and I didn't feel very well waking up on that morning. I went downstairs for breakfasthoping my wife would be pleasant and say,'Happy Birthday!',and possibly have a small present for me. As it turned out,she barely said good morning, let alone 'Happy Birthday.' I thought..... Well, that's marriage for you, but the kids... They will remember. My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfastand didn't say a word. So when I left for the office, I felt pretty low and somewhat despondent. As I walked into my office, my secretary Jane said, 'Good Morning Boss, and by the way Happy Birthday!' It felt a little better that at least someone had remembered. I worked until one o'clock, when Jane knocked on my doorand said, 'You know, It's such a beautiful day outside, and it is your Birthday, what do you say we go out to lunch, just you and me.' I said, 'Thanks, Jane, that's the greatest thing I've heard all day. Let's go!' We went to lunch. But we didn't go where we normally would go. She chose instead at a quiet bistro with a private table. We had two martinis each and I enjoyed the meal tremendously. On the way back to the office, Jane said, 'You know, It's such a beautiful day... We don't need to go straight back to the office, Do We ?' I responded, 'I guess not. What do you have in mind ?' She said, 'Let's drop by my apartment, it's just around the corner.' After arriving at her apartment, Jane turned to me and said, 'Boss, if you don't mind, I'm going to step into the bedroom for just a moment. I'll be right back.' 'Ok.' I nervously replied. She went into the bedroom and, after a couple of minutes, she came out carrying a huge birthday cake... Followed by my wife, my kids, and dozens of my friends and co-workers, all singing 'Happy Birthday'. And I just sat there... On the couch...




Naked!!!
do you lots get what it means? animal

crap. i dont know how should i feel
it should be exciting but then i dont have the faintest idea why the hell
and where the hell are you?
and you, you , you, you bla bla bla
i need food and i want food
i want pizza i want spaghetti i want mcd
i have been drinking milk for the whole day and its running out soon
i feel hell damn hungry
and screw me that i cut myself trying to open the canned food just now
that i gave up in the end
cried because i found no one. and so? like i care
gamers dung
and flirto oOo

what the hell. if you are updated enough about me then you should know my family has left to kuching since last night and they wont be back till next tuesday. (well my brother stays at home too but he doesnt make any difference because we may not be able even to meet once a day haih) that means im gonna to stay at home alone (like i told you my brother is not counted) for 3 days 4 nights. i generally am okay with that, even excited, except that i need to starve for the period of time wtf i didnt even think of coming to update my blog but i think i need to shout IM SO FREAKING HUNGRY RIGHT NOW!!! i havent been eating for the whole day since 10am this morning the maggi mee. its not that my house doesnt have anymore maggi mee but screw you if you ask me to eat the hell mee for 3 days 4 nights. my brother texted me asking me have i eaten and told me that he didnt know when could he be free to bring food back to me TT (my stomach GRUUUU like hell when im writing this seriously) it aches a bit too in the stomach but i dont care. i still wonder how am i going to survive tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow again. my parents didnt even leave me with any credit for the food zzz!

i just want food who can bring me food these days? save me =(

babe i miss you much

but how is it possible for you to know

i reckon you will never know

and i dont expect you

to know

cheers

jen : is it weird if you ex and your friend pakto?
clement : yes... it is weird that your ex is still breathing
jen : lol .......
me : HAHAHAHHAHAHA ROFL CLEMEMT!! *THUMBS UP!!!!*

i discovered this one when i read the newspaper this morning.
(mind you, i read newspapers too!)
www.willyoumarryme2010.blogspot.com
its really sweet check it oout!
may they live happily ever after =)

this is lamond
he has got a new blog
and im going to promote it
hes a newbie
=) is always his symbol
here this is the link
www.lamondtheshow.blogspot.com
enjoy

wtf i love this man HAHAHHAHHAHAHA ROFL

okay im bored and i found this amusing you have any problem?

lamond─★° says: damn victoria you more explain more confuse lim yi ok let me explain then
vit♥lia™ says: hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
lamond─★° says: let me this pro explain
vit♥lia™ says: F-FORCE
lamond─★° says: the story goes like this
lamond─★° just sent you a nudge.
vit♥lia™ says: cannot limyi i tell u
lamond─★° says: PLEASE PAY ATTENTION
Miss★Yi° ® says: hahhahahahah
vit♥lia™ says: ****** loves him
lamond─★° says: I JUST TELLING ONE TIME
vit♥lia™ says: cannot
Miss★Yi° ® says: you two hahahahhahahah
vit♥lia™ says: limyi stop that oh YEA~
lamond─★° says: HALO OI
vit♥lia™ says: i tell u i tell la
lamond─★° says: HAHAHAHAH LISTEN TO ME
Miss★Yi° ® says: wtf?
vit♥lia™ says: I TELL
Miss★Yi° ® says: hahah tell la
lamond─★° says: LISTEN TO ME
vit♥lia™ says: i tell u
lamond─★° says: CB U SHOUT UP VICTORIA I TELL YOU
then i !!!!!!!

fuck you mate.
ima gonna break your face one day,
i dont care who you are
just fuck off okay? i dont know you

LIES

babe, lies. for years.
i cant get away since then.
why?
maybe you dont even remember what have you said before.
do you not think so?
you hurt me hell a lot, you scum

ima gonna talk about my long lost friend today
in fact the statement above is a past tense
shes with me in the heart now =D

amy has grown a very very long hair

and this is her boy
arent they cute? gee

we used to be so good together
at the lost time
i wish to seek back the lost time
which nobody can hinder
amy i will be damn alright
though i know i hardly can be
but you give me the strength
and didnt leave me after the hideous thing that i have told you
we will never be parted
=)

i recall what you have promised me before. Lies. sweets? lollipops? nah nay.

updates: i cried because im touched. i love you dearly. =)

so tonight i have gone to send jia jin. when we were there to my surprise i saw many of my former classmates + schoolmates esmond leehin raymond peter and others lol i forgot who else. gah skip the boring waving goodbye part rofl i drew a ♥ on the glass for esmond and jia jin, esmond laughed till the face became like this =DDDDDD rofl. i came back home and found myself his message goes like this wei weiit '<3 ha, reached already, dont know how to react to you just now but probably going to have a sweet dream tonight' fuiyoh hes so cute lmao i guess jia jin you cant sleep too tonight


by the way, yay or nay? hmm

my sister asked me to pose

while i was having my sweet time with my dinner

zz

how old acutally am i

thanks =)

im freaking out lately. especially at nights i tend to wake up in between 4 to 430 in the morning and im absolutely clueless why is it so. i had stolen my brother's psp and played it at about the time for the previous nights okay i admit its minorly because of the ghost stories told by frederick tang before hes gone back but that doesnt affect quite as much for me to be insomnia gua cao. i wish not to wake anybody up (just like what i did at the first night i insomnia rofl) but its so effing bored to be awake alone in the middle of the night. ish and holiday nah nothing interesting happened zzz but i like holiday still gah bring me to life :l

You Took My Heart Away
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream
But you...
Saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home
And now...
I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold (living in a world so cold)
You are there to warm my soul (you are there to warm my soul)
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now...
I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We'll never be alone

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life
you really did and i can love you that much =)

my sister has got herself some self renovation
lol
this is before
and guess what
......

this is after!
hows the change? =D
i love her bloody hair
just the hair

i cant be much more clearer now
the dream has everything in it
awaken, i realize im so much capable of it
im invincible
to be frank yes i ♥ you muacks
but
i shall say as well
its time to leave =)

xixixi this is my pet in pet society
the name is didi
he used to be called chance but
somebody told me i should change it
so hes didi now
xixixi how cute is he

UPDATES:

see he has caught a pearl =D

i miss you. i really do. =(

i saw this somewhere.

'please enter your password.'
'P-E-N-I-S'
'sorry. your password is too short.'

........... lol

'...关上门，她急着离开。
她不会哭。
她只是想让他知道，她随时都会离开...'

----- 张小娴【荷包里的单人床】

just so very random

love, smarties =D

damn i finally knew why do we love crayon shin chan comic

Update:
found this in arnold's page
from the left: me, amy, arnold, eunice
woot

once again the denial strikes me like thunder

some words for some ppl in the life. im not gonna to say who anyway xp

xxx: i guess i dont need you im sorry my friend

xxx: i think you are way too flirty yet you act the innocence

xxx: i dont even know you so get your eyes off me everytime you see me dont xiong me the main point is

xxx: god bless you

xxx: im sorry i can never get any better from the day onwards

xxx: im disappointed, to be frank. you are free so dream wild =)

xxx: you are my sifu really xixixixi thanks for the help on my work

xxx: hey bro you are the man xixixi

xxx: im not a cougar but you are so cute that i hardly can resist xoxo

xxx: when will you come back? lets hook up xoxo

xxx: i just effing miss you that much

xxx: oi take care and good luck

xxx: you are my idol admire ya

我在等你，你在哪里？
雾很重，我看不见我的眼泪。
不会看见，不会的。=） 我好想你。

i visited rina's blog and found this gah i guess i just like this no other reason. period and get it started
1. What have you been doing recently?
studying gah as if im that hardworking. working on violin techniques im having the exam very soon

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
only if it switches off when the battery runs low

3. What happened at 10.00 am today?
recess time in school i studied gosh

4. When did you last cry?
idk la last night? i hate this question cao

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
not really

6. What do you want in your life right now?
what else happiness sometimes is just not enough lol im so greedy

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
of course if its pouring like theres no ending

8. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
books == seriously i have piles of books on and around my bed

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
smexy shorts lol

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox says?
it goes 'si ah bui =(' i just love this so what

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
what for

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
no the size just doesnt fit in

13. What was the last movie you caught?
gah supernatural?

14. What are you proud of?
myself kah i doubt so

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
'sleep ba. goodnight, sweet dreams'

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
no boundaries by kris allen

17. Do you have any nicknames?
hell way too many to memorise i never bother xp

18. What does your last received message say?
hello good evening lady

21. Who gives you best advice?
idk

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
yes? cant remember gosh mentioning about ice cream ps: the weather is killing me

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
my mummy

24. Is anyone bugging you right now?
no still a no

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
andy's phone ringtone

26. Do you wear toe socks?
no it feels hot

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
errr jia jin?

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
hell yeah dont tell me you never

29. Who annoys you the most in person?
wtf? idk

30. Do you have any crush on anyone?
yes

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
wont even get my ass on it

32. What is the colour of your room?
blue forget-me-not

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
cao dont be stupid

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
urgh wtf who cares

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
i me myself

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
andy

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
yes?

38. Do you have a life?
... wtf again well should i say no celaka i sound sinister haha

39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didn't die?
too many to mention? lol i can be dumb

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i hate to put songs on my profile

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i cant remember but why do you wanna know

43. Have you changed this year?
hmm yes even more flirty yeah

44. What are you listening right now?
catch your fall - gavin mikhail

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
no its late already and i dont used to talk to myself

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
damn im reaching my boiling point

47. Is there a quote you live by?
my quote 'im the queen of my world'

48. Do you have someone you cannot have?
what does this mean the someone is like eg. an alien or what

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
violin piano no wow its very common please

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
study till i die rofl

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
studying cis or emo-ing?

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
im greedy woot

53. What song best decribed your love life?
any

54. Does the person knows that you like him/her?
i guess so lmao psssfff

56. Do you speak other language other than english?
malay chinese cantonese hey i really can speak that

57. Favourite website(s)?
idk hell way too many to mention

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
go to school and make some hook up with everybody i see lol

60. Who do you think you are like?
idk a human

61. Who will you choose to die with?
you

62. Where have you been today?
school

63. What game do you play often?
i seldom play games if i really do need to come out with something alright its restaurant city

64. Who are you missing right now?
anybody

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
both i said both the end

66. What are you doing right now?
complaining about the weather

67. Which primary school are you from?
sjk(c) chung hua

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
green red black

69. What emoticon you like to show?
=)

70. What is your life to you?
my life and im the queen wahhaha ==

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
sleep the whole day off and convince myself this will be over soon very soon

72. Who did you last chat on msn today?
xiao guang

73. Who do you admire most?
myself

74. Which month are you born in?
september chick

75. How are you feeling right now?
64.9% fine

76. What's the time now?
10.17pm

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
i do the tag because i like to nobody tags me

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
primary 4 or 5 i dont care reddish brown

79. Why are you doing this?
doing what

80. What do you do when you're moody?
emo sleep text hahahahhaha to ppl i feel like texting sing or maybe cry

81. At which age you wish to get married?
any from now

82. Who is more important to you? Parents or Partner?
partner

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
go to every place i want and feel like going, say things i should to ppl i can think of, buy myself flowers, taekwando with my fat dog, scold every bitch i feel like scolding, anything i want i definately wont go for confession hey im dying and why the hell should i talk about the cynical deeds that i have done cheh

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
=) i me myself

85. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after a rain?
its proven so yes

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
get shoes and dresses, as many as i could

87. What is your goal for this year?
pass my stpm with flying colours, get married ROFL

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
i wonder

89. What feeling do you love most?
when im gay

90. Do you really think its global warming now?
hell yes

91. What feeling do you hate most?
sorrow and yet theres no medium to express gah

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
i sometimes dont even know who are the ppl even though they are talking to me

93.Do you believe in God?
i do

94. Who cares for you most?
idk reveal yourself la

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
everything is

96. What will you bring when you fight?
idk come fight me then you'll know

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
im not going to tell you hell this tag is made to dig everything out

98. What would you feel if no one longer cares for you?
ha! commit suicide should i nay i can be strong

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
watch me because i dont even know what will i do

100. How do you feel now?
fine. naw wait, maybe im fine. no no i feel complicated. no again cis idk

random:
i just bloody love this picture
so what

im getting fed up of studying

so i went online

but then was so free

so i did some searching on shoes

damn i found these

i want this kind of shoes cis

very strongly i want cao TT

but my mummy will kill me if i waste money on that again TTTTTT

black one is the coolest

aku mau ini!!

grey one very special i like this too

this one really caught my eyes TT again

blue bluey

i like green xoxo

even pink pun ada

haih i can never get that TT

okay i caught in an accident about an hour ago
i feel guilty
my daddy is that old and yet he needs to pay for the mishaps i had done
im sorry daddy and i love ya xoxo
im scared i really am
back in my room i cant help thinking
cant help wishing my babe is here with me now
cant help hoping my bff is there to say shoo depression
lamond called and thanks bro and jia you in the flirting
every action in this world bears a consequence
cao really cao

so this is my sister lo

she tio ns too just like jun's brother

haha

she didnt feel a thing pun

expected maybe

see shes still so happy posting for me =D

can i have a cheer
or should i have a cry
i cant decide
its really all up to you
though my heart shouts no but
babe you have the right
your words stab me in the heart

i went to gordon's house and i found these

hes so damn cute

and funny

isnt he cute aww

shy shy kah hahhaa

damn hes really cute

but how come this picture become more like a lady lol
hes just gordon TIO

"You Must Have Had A Broken Heart"

The way you say the things you do
The softness of the words you choose
The times that you can read my mind
And take my worries out of sight

Your fingers touching on my lips
And say a kiss is still a kiss
And when you look at me I see
I see the pain that you had to feel

You must've had a broken heart, to love me the way do
Must've been so torn apart, I can see it when I look at you
All the meaning that is in your eyes, the love you give will never die
And I knew right from the start, you must've had a broken heart

You seem to have that certain smile
I can't forget after a while
The day you walked into the room
At once I knew the hurt that you'd been through

Sometimes when its late at night and I see your face in the fire light
Showing all the love you have for me, well I love you as much

Sometimes, sometimes
Must've had a broken heart
Yeah
All the meaning that is in your eyes, the love u give will never die
And I knew right from the start, you must've had a broken heart
Sometimes.....

should i say it like
'yes, but not until the fingers can talk among themselves, or until the time the moon talks to me'
or
'no you bastard just bloody fix your damn eyes on me'?
i dont care, literally
because i cant be the only one
who would ever come junking up the heart
cao miracles really dont always happen
zip the heart up

done sukka


yay or nay?

i want you to be there when i fall
because
i just want it

these are johor and bcf thingy

very lazy

and moody cao!

im worried dead
lord please be there

so last night it was prefect dinner

i went and found myself kinda boring there
so i killed the time doing nothing but stealing budak's pictures from his phone
ta dah!

this is not from the dinner anyway
random stealing

he said
'arnold taught me so'

blaming arnold still
his err vest is bedazzled with the iban corak blink blink thingy
okay lol

lastly
me and fang hau
cis this picture
see jun my eyes so damn small diu

p/s: raymond, though i said i wouldnt post up pictures of me during the dinner
but haih take that you are my deary brother
let you see la but cis
dont message laughing me right after this
hmm xoxo

update:
i waited like for ages so i decided to take pictures
damn the salon
if you would only know why

okay so i found this one on youtube
and i was like
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
SI OSAMA HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
done

in memory
patrick su yi shang

eh so weird in nude specs lol

but why am i crying
i wish to see you but you are nowhere to be found
so i said
my green is dying
there are thunders non stop striking
the wind blows like hell i feel so effing cold
standing by the portico i let the wind blows on me
whats the point after all
but you are just never going to be there to hold and warm my chilling hands any longer

多少次我不愿意再跟随你的脚步与背影，只因为通往你心中的道路难行。高山又崎岖。我疲倦而又沉重的步履，紧追着你不回头的步伐，我累了，无法继续，有心却 无力。多少次我曾经怀疑，看不见的你是不是已经忘了自己，只因见不到你带领的手，见不到雪中的脚印。但在模糊中又仿佛听见你的心跳声，紧紧相逼。每一次我 决定放弃时，你却呼召又轻声呼唤我，以真心去用心爱你。而我，一次又一次相信了你。爱你是相信你说你爱我的心，从知道你未曾离开，我已为你在我心中冠上冠 冕，帮助我一生相信你，爱你，因为你顾念我，心疼我，这一次我将会走得更远，更靠近你心，因为你在雾中步步引领，这一生我要粘着你，用心爱你，给你你所给 过我的。

in johor

we wore the blue trousers that night

and thats why they dragged me in for the posing too

i like the mask really

=D

my green is dying

i miss you but how can i say that out

but you give my one good reason. to fight and never walk away. --- kris allen [2009]

kris allen

awww

i love him hes so effing amazing *heartssss*

my heart melts listening to him singing

=D

patrick
why are you leaving
i have prohibited myself to think of you leaving at anytime
you damn bloke
heart sinks everytime i recall that you are leaving
will you stay
if i were to ask you to stay?
but nothing can change your mind
so please boy
promise that you will be all fine there
thats all i can say now
period.

so babe im leaving to johor tomorrow for choir thingy la
nothing special just wish me luck
and please miss me
text me more and more and more
bui bui im surely gonna miss you =(
but i said before im not gonna tell you about that geeee

i think i will write a post for patrick and so im working on it now

firstly patrick ccbknnmjb to you first for making the decision to leave us all here lan c la dio maktab and get your ass out of the stuck life here immediately. screw you bloke. screw you. im not saying that you cant leave but why this time huh and i can never get a rest blaming you for this celaka betul okay done with the scolding liao. next.
good luck to you. honestly i thought you wouldnt get it at the first place and i just cant, until now, put the idea inside my mind that you are actually going to be teacher an official teacher and not just what so called dota sifu or fashion icon sifu bah but fact proves me wrong. you can have your dream now that you wish to leave here ala im sad again haih. but chill why should i be when you can finally get hold of your own ambition? so dude congratulations and good luck.
bloke you have the charm and i always love your accidentally-told jokes. you are, okay for that you are leaving im gonna compliment you, cool and zz cant find any other words to describe your good side lala i admire the way you lead your life seriously and ima not gonna say this the second time haha alright la i dont know what else to say have already tried my best to leave at a memoriable thing in my blog about you patrick. we are gonna miss you really at least ima gonna miss you, in case the others wont xoxo
bye and good luck for everything which is coming to you
burn your life with the utmost triumph which will make you feel like you are alive gee =)

on saturday i went to the friendship night at weasley church, invited by ashley woohoo at first i didnt even think of going la because i have orchestra practice on every saturday night. but then that afternoon after going out with eunice arnold and timonthy i decided to give it a try (plus that i thought cheng jun could join us teehee) cheng jun wasnt there that night because he told me he thought i wouldnt go so he promised en rou to go to his church youth fellowship urgh his couzy needs some encouragement lol. i lan c to him it was quite fun lo geee

all of them were forced by me to take pictures as below haha

this is timonthy
cute huh

fang hau was there too
invited by andrea gua
he refused to smile at the first place but i forced him

have i ever told ya arnold is super cute?
heres the prove

and lastly zhen zhi
shes so shy when i told her that i would show this picture to alex hehe
her face all went red and screamed like a mad brunette that night
ala she said they were foster siblings
nah
and shes so cute xoxo shes mine oi alex

psssss i was a bit down because of your coldness that night

dont lose your temper on me
because what i need the most at the moment like this
is just comfort from you
but bet it
you will never know
because nobody is gonna care about it =(

so the lesson learnt today is to always bring your house key with you whenever you leave home
i forgot that so i was locked outside under the hot scorching sun this afternoon
really mcb
i realised i forgot to bring the key when i was in stella's car
and felt kinda relieved upon seeing my grandma's door was opened wide
shes living next door to me in case you dont know
thought she had come back from vacation
but guess what
i think its my uncle who had left the door wide opened before he left
gave me hope but ruined it again
i decided to climb through the gate
and so i did
i thought the big door was not locked because it wasnt usually locked
but ccbknnmjb again it was locked
who the hell locked it a we dont used to lock it okay babe?
i explored all the windows from outside hoping to discover one without on lock
none and my dog chang ming kept sniffing at me
eww shoo chang ming
so i waited outside the door
even its shaded but its still so heated
i messaged my sister asking her to come back quick after her work
and i didnt know what shes so busy at that she only replied me after 45 minutes
'got key at shoe rack. phone your mum and ask.'
i exploded instantly
the end sayang me please TT

lalala
i kept my promise
drank a big glass of milo
so no cursing xoxo
hmmm i reckon ill miss ya when im away next week =)
but i wont let you know xp

its late at night
i love plurking lalala
hahahaha =(

okay told you last time we went to a park. judging from the pictures below if you are a sibu lan you will surely know where is it. here it goes teehee=)

i was made the frog rider

because i rode on the frog almost immediately when we were there

=.=

on the seasaw lol

was i talking or what?

and its eunice's turn

shes just opposite me

ah shes pretending not to look at the camera haha

eunice: my legs look so slim lah

and then eunice discovered a great shooting scene

from the view from the seasaw

so she asked me to stand on the thing

i dont know whats that

the shot was pretty with the sunlight isnt it

teehee=)

i asked her to stay there too

we lot discovered this on the slide

is this so called vandalism?

i dont know what exactly do the words mean but they kept laughing upon seeing those

so i guess

its somekind like foul words gua

and this one

propose on the slide a

how very darey of you amir

yay

i know what i was looking at

shh secret bah sukka =D

i was so happy lol

and still im

ppl we should really rise and go for a walk early in the morning

earth is calling lets go

*************************************************************************************

right in that afternoon after lunch

fred's car spoilt hahahhahaha

we waited for the big boss to come

and for the car to be towed

until really zzzzz look at our face

eunice

tired bored sorching hot

sigh

timonthy had actually got tuition at 2pm that day

so he left earlier

fred was still smiling big

but then...

sigh

hes learning the pose from inital D jay chou's pose

'haih my AE 86'

eh wake up la

so we girls made fun of taking photos again

reflection

me. eunice

oi boss where is your big boss

weiseh yeng mou?

i discover this one

omg how young i was

and z cant believe i did the pose damn

at ice city if not mistaken

look at my super round face

andy said he had always learnt that my face was round

but this one is exceptionally round

i dont care

dont laugh i love my round face

and finally to this one

i was pretending la playing the ajinomoto la

dont dare to look at the camera

the end

today after choir nobody could fetch me back

my car was sent to hospital

so

i went to watch cheng jun's competition

hes so handsome and smart in uniform la xoxo

hes the green belt but

he got to compete with a black belt pro haha

you guys really should see his face when he got to know whos his competitor

i waited and waited for his turn

but when i was about to watch his competition

just after a round until his

my car came diu oOo

so i couldnt watch him compete

sien ki

when i stood up to be ready to go back

i wished him luck

he shook my hand really hard

awwww make me wish to stay to watch his competition more

urgh i wish i was there ahhhhh

but hoh i knew hes gonna tell me the result hehe when hes free la of course

he even posed for me to take pictures of him

see isnt he smart xoxo *shy si*

hes like a king or warrior getting ready to go for war

omg omg omg long live the king cheng jun woohoooooo

xoxo

we went to a park in a morning and took pictures of course. i decided that to put these two up first before the others hahah though its not really that funny but i like to share it o haha come enjoy

this...

and this. alalalala

steampot night guys. i didnt realise we took so many pictures until moment ago i decided to browse it through. im gonna post them all up without captions because im so lazy that i dont feel like doing so teehee =) enjoy

政俊啊政俊，加油加油加油！！

hey, 少许时候，我真的很想你。但我不能做些什么，也不哭，那是约定。

我不想忘了你，因为你会是我最美丽的曾经。

我爱你不是因为你是谁，而是因为我在你面前可以是谁。

我拥有太多你给的微笑，我有时也会怀念你只对我一个人的温柔，我一个人的拥抱。

加油=）

we went to zhi ying lao di fang on thursday night i guess if not mistaken

these are the photos taken that night

the drinks namely from the left

i need you, i miss you and i love you

i love green so

i need you is mine

i love the colour very much

spaghetti bolognaise

its mine

seafood spaghetti

its timonthy's

eh forgot what this called

its frederick's

it actually looks so nice o

something with cereal what de

this is eunice's

its common kueh tiao

tonight
moony is absent
and m moody :C
who can be with me
i wonder will my phone even ring tonight
i know it wont
bah goodnight

ela i admit im actually a bit lazy to update but if im not gonna update as soon my blog is gonna die.
so yesterday i went choir in the morning and then afternoon to boyz the cc. lalal left 4 dead la of course i was so pro already but in front of timonthy and frederick im just a sei noob. eunice plurked a lot hahah i met a lot there and was quite surprised to see gordon standing there staring at me diu he scared me for just a while lol then after that 345 something my phone rang. its cheng jun. *winks* he asked if i was on my way lol we were supposed to fetch him to go swimming together hahah but the driver was still football-ing there. fred said just tell cheng jun we were on our way ahhaha sorry la cheng jun. we drove all the way up to fetch cheng jun. i sat at the back seat the middle between eunice and cheng jun and on the way down to swimming pool zz let fred eunice do ki. i saw eunice whispered to frederick and already i was wondering. fred took a sharp turn suddenly and eunice zz leaned towards me and 'accidentally' pressed against me that i leaned hard on cheng jun zz just when i was wondering if eunice's inertia was that low that to even press me towards cheng jun, cheng jun laughed like hell zz ala thank you la eunice and fred. so we reached the pool but it rained. hahah and no improper clothes are allowed well we are famous of the dcn which stands for dun chio nv in foochow so we went in with RM1.50 cheng jun was the first one to jump into the pool with shorts. he was shooed up by the guard. we all moved to the children's pool and had a lot of fun there. i swear arnold is the thinnest boy i have ever seen so far. eunice kept on wei weiit-ing when arnold took off his top lalalla had a lot of fun there pulling ppl down to the pool == we were all pakat to pull cheng jun down the pool but then it turned out to be me to be pulled down by him zz arnold was the only success case to be pulled lalala
that night we went bbq at madam jamie's shop lol no photos to show because they were all with eunice. will get from her and upload it.
today things happen too but right now im so lazy to talk about it tata wait till the other post C:

pei shi. alan

the night where all the boys were out lalaala
hidayah alex lincoln stum arnold
alex you are so yeng in pyjamas

seriously i like this photo very much
because of *shy*
jenlung. cheng jun. stum. alex. timonthy. alan. iguana. lincoln. arnold

add on lol
ee jia and pui shi
i still like the previous one more

super soprano
i dont know whats her name
mavis. anonymous

with the philipino team

arnold is so light
i can lift him up too
easily

pui shi. arnold.

他和她的恋情从来都不被看好过。
他是个好男子，一个每一个女子心目中的白马王子，英俊能干。好像他身上没有什么是能够被挑剔的了。
他却爱她，在他遇见她之后，再也没有任何一个人能够走进他的心房；
而她，只是一个再也普通不过的女子，漂亮却也冷漠。从来没有人猜透她的心。
她习惯了吸烟。
吸烟能让她忘了烦恼。她也知道不好，但她的生命却好像与烟紧紧连着，除不开。
他频频劝她戒了，但她办不到。
‘好像爱你一样，吸的越多，就越爱你。’ 说完，冷冷地往他脸上吐了一口烟。
他无奈。
她从来没想过，自己却让他受苦了。
他得了癌症。二手烟吸多了。
躺在病床上的他仍然俊俏，脸却苍白了许多。
她坐在他的病床旁，毫无表情地望着他熟睡的脸，手里仍然抽着烟。
他的睫毛，鼻子，嘴，每一个属于他的东西，她细细地扫过。
他的额头，是她最眷恋的地方。
朋友们都不理解她的冷漠，她的冷静。
他睁开眼，‘戒了吧。’
在他病了以后，她吸烟吸得更凶了。
‘不。’ 又往他脸上吐了一口烟。
他缓缓闭上眼，嘴角轻轻往上扬。他还是了解她的。
生命逝去了。
她闭上眼，缓缓地抽着烟。一整天，她对着他的尸体抽去了多少包烟，她也不知道。
直到他下葬的那一天，她依然如此。
他逝去了以后，她发现她越来越难对别人有好像对他的感觉。
她越来越难对别人有多一份关心。
她抽的烟越来越少。
最后，她戒了烟。
别人都认为他爱她胜过于她爱他。
但其实，他们又懂得多少？

the scores and my feet

en rou and the i dont know whats that

they played ABC stop
oi hidayah you superman?

ala lihai la lihai la
arnold is cute xoxo

sectional practice time means sleeping time

siew lin was so bored that she arranged all her hair bands and took the photo and sent it to me

even the most naughty child was asleep
can you imagine our life as hell there

sorry i was really bored

see all sleep

look how happy we were when he announced theres a break

ah well hehe i went to soccer today with fred seng wei timonthy seng li and eunice. we decided to join fred and timonthy after the movie 'push'. hahah on the way to stadium we were all so excited that we winded down the windows and made the fun out of nobody. we wei weiited, shouted, yuhooed everybody we passed, especially the old citizens haha so high la. reached there and found the kids were there too. i got to know three kids there namely kenny kenneth and nicholas. z they are my xue di la form 2 di. kenny and kenneth are twins i dont know its kenny or kenneth la that boy kept firing the football at me. kena 5 times z i shouted at him then took his phone and took the pictures of everybody there. nicholas shot eunice at the same place just as where ken shot me. z left thigh i kicked but im the newbie la. kicked like no kick. fred and seng wei are the sifu. they showed me their foot omfg its all red due to the kicking hahaha i enjoyed the moment so much kicking the football, being the goal keeper, and kacauing the three little kids. they will be there again tomorrow teehee

Ten Things i Wish i Could Say to Ten Different People (but don't say their name) :

1. you are always there when i cry =)
2. live strong. be loyal
3. i can never be more sorry of the things i have done
4. aww i hate you but i adore you xoxo
5. you make wanna prey on you
6. aiya you are handsome la
7. big brother i love you teehee =D
8. abuh you are all the way blocking my mind because you are just a piece of shit lalala
9. screw you
10. screw you too

Nine things about myself :

1. im a slut
2. im a flirt
3. i curse
4. im lazy. super lazy. more than you could ever think of
5. i want more money. in other word, materialistic
6. i hate
7. i friendship hugged alex
8. im tired and wanna off
9. i say wtf

Eight ways to win my heart :

1. flowers i will probably melt
2. lollipops for sure
3. tease me?
4. being good looking
5. stay fun. feed me with interesting topics
6. say you love me
7. care for me
8. bring me foooooooood

Seven things that cross my mind a lot :

1. omg its half past 12 midnight now
2. physics cuts my age short
3. pimples dulang you
4. i flirt a lot meh
5. the weather wtf
6. i wanna set my blog private
7. he occupies me

Six things I do before I fall asleep :

1. online
2. plurk
3. read
4. hahaha
5. brush teeth
6. think

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) :

1. you
2. him
3. him
4. her
5. her

Four things your wearing right now :

1. blue too
2. shorts
3. hair clip
4. what else?

Three places that you would like to go:

1. london
2. poles
3. singapore

Two things you want to do before you die :

1. say i hate you to ppl i hate
2. ask God for longer life

One confession :

1. i hate

be aware of promises that you have promised
be aware of the trust ppl have indulged on you
because you will never know
what does it cost in the whole
when you turn your promises
away
and say its okay all the way
that
is unforgivable
undeniably

i personally think this one is the best.
for his new book cover.
but seems like not everyone agrees so.
so kelvin i choose this one la
and guys!
xia wei is going to pulish his second book!
well im his first fans since secondary school so
i reckon i will give full support on his books
you all know hes a talented writer
at his age
i intended to join his competition
so lets wait for my article
xia wei jia you jia you
and you all out there,
why dont you just grab the chance to get a book of his?
since its going to sell in sibu
no other places can be reached so easily
in july
coming up next
the
陪我去旅行
=)

and why
do i start to miss you again?
aiks come back babe
as if you will really come back =(
lalala =l

hey didi happy anniversary =) thanks for everything

omg who the hell is that leg belongs to

so obedient leh
-.- get used to it la

shes the prettiest when she plays piano

the consequence of over stressed

mavis on bus

drew doremon during course

lydia.me.peishi

told ya all sleeping

this is the soprano tutor
hes so geng can sing soprano @@

i get really frustrated to figure out which day the photos were taken so in the end i decided to put all up. after all, who cares which day its taken :l

@@

can you read how tired i was?

tired but smile zzz

ecinue and i

i. peishi

group photo

im gonna have little boys as cute as him

act cool

they are begging eunice to delete photos of them wahahah

these two are the two boys our girls crazy about
ala they are pretty cute then
surprise : both younger than me

it seems like everybody can lift me up

ying tian xiao hai zhi hehe

ATTENTION!!
CRAZY HIDAYAHHH

world famous pianists

starring: Frederick Tang, Lau Seng Wei

1　被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2　請老實的回答每一個問題。
3　不行擅自塗改題目。
4　寫完請點8位小朋友，不可不點。
5 點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
6 那8位小朋友填完問卷，必須把問卷寄回給你填問卷的人。

＊＊＊＊--------------個 人 題 - 10 題 --------------＊＊＊＊

01 你叫什么：limyi
02 你的綽號：miss yi
03你的血型：idk
04 你的星座：libra
05 你是男還是女：female
06 你幾歲：almost 19
07你住哪裡：my house
08 你現在的學校 : smk methodist sibu
09 你有沒有手機 : yea
10 承上，那是多少：none of your business

＊＊＊＊------------ 朋 友 題 - １０ 題 --------------＊＊＊＊

↘11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）:everybody is
↘12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：disgusted me the most? okay its *** **** oOo
↘13 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）：jun?
↘14 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）：patrick for sure lol
↘15 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：fake like you are innocent when you have done something wrong
↘16 什麼樣的男生你最討厭：dont wanna admit their wrong doings
↘17 你的好朋友有誰（不限）：duh so many
↘18 你經常和哪位朋友出去：duh so many
↘19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）:huh
↘20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）:wtf

＊＊＊＊-----------感 情 題 - １５ 題 --------------＊＊＊＊

❤21 你有沒有喜歡的人：huh yeah
❤23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：wait till the time comes
❤24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：none
❤25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過: idk
❤26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋有：5
❤27 你現在有另一半嗎:　no
❤28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：oOo
❤29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 : see first la
❤30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人:huh idk and i hate this question la
❤31 你和另一半牽手過嗎：yeah
❤33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：yeah
❤34 是誰，你們什麼關係：ex
❤35 現在有人在追你嗎：idk

＊＊＊＊-------------- 混 合 題 - １０ 題 --------------＊＊＊＊

36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣 : happened =(
37如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：oOo bye bye
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：=(
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：nah
40 你上課認真嗎 : seldom
41 你功課好不好:terrible
42 你开电腦都在幹麻: movie blog msn facebook
43 你的即时通有多少个同性:idk whats this
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：idk whats that

＊＊＊＊-------------- 兇 手 題 - 10題 --------------＊＊＊＊

45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：i wanna do from greatsmile
46 这個人對你好不好：hes friendly
47 這個人是你的誰：schoolmate?
48你有喜歡過這個人嗎：no
49 你們認識多久了：tsk idk la
50 這個人是怎樣的人：great awesome
51 這個人正／帥嗎：cutie
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：no
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼辦：like like la why does the question ask like hes a super bad guy lol

＊＊＊＊--------------- 聯 想 題 - １０ 題-------------＊＊＊＊

56 說到正妹你會想到誰：eunice lol
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：patrick
58 說到憨你會想到誰：patrick
59 說到痴你會想到誰：fang hau
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：i me myself *shy*
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：hmm
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：wow
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: me myself
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰:andrew
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : me myself

＊＊＊＊--------------- 學 校 題 - 11題 --------------＊＊＊＊

66 你的班導是誰: madam ling
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：second row
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：ah kong
70 你的英文好嗎：so so la
71 你的體育好嗎: you guess
72 你的数学好么：so so too
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：du nei you
74 你的學校好看嗎：idk la
75 你的班級是：U6S1
76 你的班級在幾樓：second floor

this is stupid
very stupid
because i keep tripping over things that we shared
it still causes heart pain when i think of her
i cant let go
everything connected to her
stirs my heart
to the very utmost beating
just like marijuana
i wonder how long can it last
i wonder how strong can she be
hurt me
when faked the i love you
shoo


and somehow i wish, it will never end =(

day 2

ala i know i kinda mixed up the day 1 and day 2 but who cares lol im suffering from parkinson la diu enjoy

the big family (im not that petit anyway)

stum being bullied eh poor stum

madam jamie and eugenie

ela im the queen of tie that day

the specs selling lady
(that were stum and zhen zhi's hands)

oi this is tou pai oi

ah fa xian bei tou pai

lol hes mine xoxo

ala i was so funny

threesome

mavis and i

arnold the cutie

i was in the middle eh weiweiit

day 1

airport time

we look like we were in a wad

my stanley on the trolley =D

three sohai ppl

hercules-es around

act cool

muscle men wei weiit

oh gosh lincoln the tarzan?

eh monkey

firstly, home sweet home =) ive got tonnes of photos to show you all but i dont have the faintest idea which ones to choose. will post all up once i got all from iguana and eunice

一个人在这个夜里
孤单得难以入睡
真的想找个人来陪
不愿意一个人喝醉
醉了以后就会流泪
数着你给的伤悲
为什么你总让我憔悴
别说我的眼泪你无所谓
看我流泪你头也不回
哭过了泪干了心变成灰
我想要的美你还不想给
伤了的我的心怎去面对
爱给了你我不后悔
只希望你给我一次机会
让我去追让我去飞
毕竟爱过的心需要安慰
需要你安慰 

out of the 248 posts below this, this is the post that i love the most. i shall give no comment on this post just i really zz dont know how to say la enjoy

1、有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；有时候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了。

2、以为蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不见这个世界；以为捂住了耳朵，就可以听不到所有的烦恼；以为脚步停了下来，心就可以不再远行；以为我需要的爱情，只是一个拥抱。

3、那些已经犯过的错误，有一些是因为来不及，有一些是因为刻意躲避，更多的时候是茫然地站到了一边。我们就这样错了一次又一次，却从不晓得从中汲取教训，做一些反省。

4、你不知道我在想你，是因为你不爱我，我明明知道你不想我，却还爱你，是因为我太傻。也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么，而是在等待什么。

5、天空没有翅膀的痕迹，但鸟儿已经飞过；心里没有被刀子割过，但疼痛却那么清晰。这些胸口里最柔软的地方，被爱人伤害过的伤口，远比那些肢体所受的伤害来得犀利，而且只有时间，才能够治愈。

6、很多人，因为寂寞而错爱了一人，但更多的人，因为错爱一人，而寂寞一生。我们可以彼此相爱，却注定了无法相守。不是我不够爱你，只是我不敢肯定，这爱，是不是最正确的。

7、如果背叛是一种勇气，那么接受背叛则需要一种更大的勇气。前者只需要有足够的勇敢就可
以，又或许只是一时冲动，而后者考验的却是宽容的程度，绝非冲动那么简单，需要的唯有时间。

8、生命无法用来证明爱情，就像我们无法证明自己可以不再相信爱情。在这个城市里，诚如劳力士是物质的奢侈品，爱情则是精神上的奢侈品。可是生命脆弱无比，根本没办法承受那么多的奢侈。

9、人最大的困难是认识自己，最容易的也是认识自己。很多时候，我们认不清自己，只因为我们把自己放在了一个错误的位置，给了自己一个错觉。所以，不怕前路坎坷，只怕从一开始就走错了方向。

10、生活在一个城市里，或者爱一个人，又或者做某件事，时间久了，就会觉得厌倦，就会有一种想要逃离的冲动。也许不是厌倦了这个城市、爱的人、坚持的事，只是给不了自己坚持下去的勇气。

11、多少次又多少次，回忆把生活划成一个圈，而我们在原地转了无数次，无法解脱。总是希望回到最初相识的地点，如果能够再一次选择的话，以为可以爱得更单纯。

12、如果你明明知道这个故事的结局，你或者选择说出来，或者装作不知道，万不要欲言又止。有时候留给别人的伤害，选择沉默比选择坦白要痛多了。

abudehyinai really
i so wanna point you ma middle finger
so just let me
nah, oO0
serves you right
you really shouldnt have done that
si zc fanten lol (purposely put the name up)
boys suck
吼吼吼吼吼吼吼吼!!!!


update : uh oops i shouldnt have told the bad words of others (e.g the slut) too. but at least i didnt do like what fanten had done ==

oh babe why why why
why did you say bye bye bye
you didnt even kiss me night night night
for ages
why would you do that to me
thats why im drowning
drowning drowning drowning
still im im im

its about 3 minutes to midnight now. chemistry test tomorrow AND YET im sitting here blogging zzz i think i ought to have minutes rest so i give the time to my missy technicolour. i plan not to sleep tonight or maybe shall sleep not earlier than 3am IF I REALLY FEEL LIKE SLEEPING. duh thats the consequense of ignoring my alarm this afternoon. well i have got enough rest and shall continue striving now tata 

ps: have got a row with family just now urgh not really in good mood at the moment =(

[你为什么要回去找他？你还爱他吗？]
[我恨他。]
[那么就是还爱他啦。我陪你回去吧。]

---张小娴，[CHANNEL A]

忘不了，就干脆不忘。
转身离开才了解的思念，你永远都不必懂。
我告诉自己，爱你的人太多，和他们相比，我太过于平凡。
以为自己已走远，回过头，才发现自己依然停留在那个该死的雨天。
也许一切都太不值得，至少我没有后悔过。
你的一句简单不爱我，我却要用一生来解脱。
不爱你了吗？却仍然解不开心中的想念。
灯亮了，祝你幸福。


ta dah blank post :l

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
cheek? neck?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
dying. im sick

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
cheng jun

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
ppl said so

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
if i pass the test

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
hmmm no?

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
err not till dead

8. What does your last text message say ?
"right"

9. What are you thinking right now ?
thinking why am i confused and how to study polymer later

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
Yeah. =X

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
pass 12 for sure

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
my sister bought it i dont really know where

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
Yeah. Teehee.

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
fang hau

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz... (People who visits my blog often and has a blog)
1. patrick
2. jun
3. ching ping
4. xiawei
5. vicky
6. rachel
7. greatsmile
8. allen
9. a bui
10. benjamin

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
no one

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
Female~

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
err its against the natural rule

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
form 6

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
1. now on msn
2. thursday texting
3. last night msn
4. it has been long
5. long too
6. idk
7. in chatbox few weeks ago
8. Ages!
9. have we ever?
10. last night texting

20.Is no.4 single ?
probably yes. heard no news

21. Say something about no.2 .
shes pretty and sweet. universal lover

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
against natural rule again.

23. Describe no.9 .
heard hes lame LOL

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
none of my bloody business

25. Do you like no. 8?
yeah hes handsome xoxo (no la. avril, didnt mean anything)

im sick again. this time i think its fever. like he said, if you feel cold and yet your body feels warm, that means you are having fever.yeah my feet feel cold right now and i shivered just now when i woke up from the so called nap lala. i think so too but i dont have a thermometer to prove it. my mummy touched my forehead and said i was indeed having high fever. fever ONLY. no flu no coughing no sore throat. how long have it been since i last got high fever. i feel dizzy really damn fucking dizzy that i knocked into my bedroom door just a moment ago. he said its because that i slept late last night oi boy i always sleep late dont i? so, cross that out. z no matter what, gotta study later. even if im not really into it xoxo exam is near im stressed out really.

im back after days in bintulu. i had fun of course and its tiring really. shall see when will the photos show themselves

small p/s: cheng jun's mummy is very cute and nice as well

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不掉眼泪的人，是不是用着别的方法哭泣？

我是最了解你的人
但你却急着说再见
我不懂
永远都不会懂

extra class in the afternoon. expected la physics extra class what can i do lol play around la blackout some more hot si. come lets take picture of mr wong

pretty pose leh

charles patrick and i think thats andrew eh
aiya act hardworking?

andy and wei kang

sing song and roger
charles wanna butt in?

mr wong again hahahah behind the bottle

mr wong over didi's shoulder

my book haiz

charles and ah finally parker and andrew again

mr wong lagi
aiya hes the man of the day

si patrick
said i forced him to take picture
nah

charles lagi leh weiweiit

that afternoon hes so cute

the night before fang hau at stella's house...

dota-ing

dang why nowadays the life so dull

我爱你。

looking back i realise
its always there and just never spoken
im careful enough not to touch the heart broken thread
have i met what they so called the bloke?
so young i neednt to go through this
but im
i keep on asking and keep on wondering
that doesnt do much harm
i wish to go back
to the time when everything seems to be so simple
the more i learn the more i retreat
inner complication is really driving me mad
out of my system aint i?
bloke what should i do

wtf i dont get you
and its driving me mad
yet another big disappointment
bah you brat

‘你怔怔地望着我，无法说话。

这是我头一次对你说我爱你，也是最后一次。

虽然舍不得，我还是在眼泪涌出来之前离开。

月有阴晴圆缺，但是死了的月亮回复生。

死了的心却不会复活。

我不在乎我放弃了些什么来跟你走到一起，我从来没有后悔，但是我在乎我在你心中的位置。

以后，每一个月圆的晚上，我仍然会怀念你的温柔，你轻轻的鼻息，你在恩戴米恩的月光下温暖而鲜活的身体。

我只是无法再站在你面前。’

‘云生：

如果有一天，我们在路上重逢，而我告诉你：“我现在很幸福。”我一定是伪装的。
如果只能够跟你重逢，而不是共同生活，那怎么会幸福呢？
告诉你我很幸福，只是不想让你知道其实我很伤心。

苏盈’

PS：当我在看张小娴的小说时，我想起了那个很少大笑的他。那你呢？当你在看张小娴的小说的时候，你想起的又会是谁？

happy labour day and happy birthday daddy
weather is fine compared to last week oh gosh last week was like hell
having sore throat
okay fine not really sore throat too
its some sort of itchy-ness of throat
i have the feeling i will lose my voice if choir tends to act like im invisible
really tiring
but enjoyable
read new books today
for ages have not been reading chinese books
and i found the old pleasure in reading so
thanks to greatsmile
anyway its a plain day generally
expecting something special
text me, can you?
so i can add you to my special found-out list of the life
please

wtf whats happening to me? everything is wrong, particularly wrong. fucked up relationship, health problem, celaka rumours flying, failure in study, girls xiong-ing me? yay im dying?

this song, crossed my heart, breaks hearts. check it out then.

"I Dreamed a Dream" ~ Les Miserables

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

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i get bored again this afternoon so started to camwhore with my deary sister lol

neh those are her fingers lo
refused to get into the camera

left side

right side
taken when i kacau her

she said i should try the pose

ala a more serious one

the end.
wtf so bored.
and so hot.

two hours. _l_ it finally stopped. will i be another bloody mary? only if the situation continues la. today wire sot sorry sorry but still wtf two hours wasted

today's highlight:

does this look like a tear?

you are beautiful

you are beautiful

its true.

sigh i cant do it. why cant i? i thought i was good in it but proven im just like the others. i need to break free i cant afford another one. screamsssss. what should i do and what can i do. diu lets just study more then sigh and z no one can help me.

screamssss.
why am i so stupid.
how much do you know?
none.

they are having muet test tomorrow ah good luck to all of them out there. i cant help you ppl much so can just send my regards la xoxo
and im so bored so i search the computer and found some oldies lets see xoxo

madam jamie and the young ones

eunice and i

winny. christine. yien ping.

zheng zhi. zeng gu. frederick. winny. eunice.

couple of the year zeng gu and frederick

oh wtf what was i looking at.
winny eunice me and mavis in front

eunice. me.

yi jia. winny. eunice. arnold.
new discovery: arnold is very cute xoxo

ps again:
im very very tired.
but why cant i sleep?
im so legit.

i hope for things that can never be granted.
aiks i need to learn to come strong again.
just watch.
ignorance is bliss.

eunice just told me theres a 50% sales for all the shoes in lea centre eh that makes me wanna get more new shoes xoxo but i have just bought 2 pairs this week z. still, im gonna go and have some look on the shoessssssssssss

i miss you.
really i do.
but how much do you know?

i know i know. i really know. though i knew it far long ago, i cant help my heart sinking. you dont need to tell lies really, and dont need to act like you are not interested, like you dont care. i caught your eyes staring else where when you talk. somewhere near there. girl girl i wish you luck.








ps: can it really be so? no no, its impossible wake up la si bitch

competition today. i was in black attire. the hall was really hot really really hot. the heel really hurts a lot but aiya poker face la nobody knew until i told them. while waiting for the result, i got really really hungry. i asked teacher if she still got buns left. she got me 2 buns i ate them all up within 20 minutes but then i was still hungry. lol they said i could swallow a cow really was hungry that time and i wonder why. however there was no more food left. so cheng jun said help me go canteen buy. i didnt say what i want and hes already on his way. i thought he was kidding too la so no niao continue my chatting with joe. then suddenly black plastic appeared in front of my eyes, cheng jun bought me mee and french fries from canteen ah the little boys got so excited especially joe :l the primary schools' singing i didnt catch it. the champion was sjk chung sing weiseh. we got champion too for secondary school. im the best conductor lol i found it really amusing. i actually jumped a bit when i heard the mc, 'adik limyi' lol no certificate no trophy nothing cheh. when the competition was over, i came walking down the hall staircase the little kids came rushing towards me shouting 'conductor of the year!' to their peers then whole group of them surrounded me like a star lol 'can you shake hand with me?' 'all the best' 'you were great' 'nice to meet you' 'can you sign me?' lol little kids are cute. come again la 8 may is soon coming damn gotta work harder again

im not gonna say much. i feel right complicated.:l

ps: wish i do well tomorrow.

i will be changing template again wahahha because i got sien of this new thing i cant remove the jane smith bang bang so i decided to change one again. heh however i wasnt quite sure what to do hahah so i seeked for patrick's help hes currently not in the mood so i guess i need to wait till he got the mood to help me do the template. until then, cheers =) the new one is quite okay la but i absolutely just cant get more affection towards the font size. the font is okay but the size is just way toooooooo large for me. patrick if you can please help me change that too. edit template la hahaha i want it small small small xoxox cant help you much in restaurant city but if you want you can give me your mail password i help you log in everyday la hahahah.

pss pss over here.
did you really try before?
because if you didnt,
then just stop saying that you did.
everybody deserves a second chance,
but you,
as far as i can see,
have already got more than what you should have.
i wont change, not until now starting from the very beginning.
but how much do you know?
live strong.
you are loved. =)

im not unhappy. im not. i say im not. im =)



why do you make me this way? :l

its so fucking hot today. i sweated like i have just taken my shower. in sleep. home alone z air con please be strong. what should i do today? :l

happy birthday dear.

though you said you probably wouldnt be celebrating,

i bet son son is going to do something.

just for your birthday.

its your day girl.

make a sweet escape.

from homework

from assignments.

enjoy the very day of the year.

heart you. ♥

how can i not miss them? =(
i wish to go back to the times.
when everything is just as plain.
but this will never come true.
im obsessed living in the past.
just for a moment, let me miss them much.
=(

apparently, i have got my blog template changed. helps from patrick and jun thanks wahahha. i dont know whats up with the 'about us' beside, but i guess ill just leave it there its not at all bad too. revolution but actually nothing much has changed. i need to find some entertainment for my life to prevent getting drowned back to xoxo again. eg, dotaaaa GEEE
bah i gotta go physics test tomorrow woot!

im drowning still.
sometimes i just love to be alone.
dont you? ♥
and sometimes
i just cant leave you. :l

aiks gotta sort that out on my own again i wish im smarter and more diligent to do so aiks aiks aiks

you know what? i can never be fine anymore. =)

微笑再微笑吧。=)

如果骗自己会好过一些的话，那我也可以吗？
该死的，又下雨了。

it rained that morning. rather heavily. and i spotted you in the rain you were dashing over. you were late again despite of i telling you not to be. you were in red easily spotted though its raining cats and dogs lol. had breakfast and played hand-hand. much more to come we ran like theres no ending, following the couple everywhere. its sort of game. we crossed the bridge, hand-hand, shoulder to shoulder. it was just a game but i felt close. and it beated much more than it should.

i actually cried today during choir practice. damn it very shameful. its the song wishing you were somehow here again. i never meant to let it overflow to cry just could help when thinking and singing alone in heart with the song lyrics. why must teacher put the song in a huh i could do nothing i was conducting. i cant possibly suddenly stop conducting and wipe the tears half way in the middle of the song so i continued. what came worse was that tearssss rolled down the cheeks i thought they were only gonna stay in the eyes swimming blurring up my vision i couldnt hold. who knows they overflew. i carried on then faking my every actions to wipe away the mishaps on the cheeks i felt miserable very very weary. zheng zhi said i had got sorrow in eyes today what for? just simply feeling weary enough. and once the song ended, they started shooting questions towards me i said im fine. sometimes its really capable of telling lies. i cant stand another 2am any longer, all alone. :l hush secrets

ah its really boring these nights so i started going insane and camwhoring xoxo i never good in it

after school concert. eunice and i

camwhoring 1

ah my stanley xoxo

its hanging eh

camwhoring 2

bunny by vicky

camwhoring 3

camwhoring 4

urgh what am i doing

～忘记～
一觉醒来记忆仍然没有更新
只停留在过去的往事里
我很用力地去忘记那段回忆
可是
我始终没法忘记
算了
还是不要忘记的好
就把那当成一个回忆
一个扣人心弦的故事

～失恋～
我忘了是哪一天
忘了是哪个地点
只记得你对我说过的那三个字
不是我爱你
不是我想你
而是分手吧
不用三秒就已经说得很清楚
没有完美大结局
没有任何句号来表明结束
一切就这么地简单


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i felt like dumb and deaf when watching him singing up there. everything went blur once he started. i was holding winny's hand and she said i felt cold. i just couldnt help ignoring others' calls because its life and death. frederick was nervous too of course as i said its all about life and death la. but phew he sang really well and great gesture up there. though he forgot some of it but its at all still the best. i clapped the loudest and wei weiited a lot. hes the star of the night he really is.

多余的事情不要做太多！sak o shi jia lol

simple things can make me happier. messaged me this afternoon and waited for me for the soft moonlight walk at night. given me sweets as well. we were all alone i was nervous? lol not a bit. why do i feel strange. the moon is pretty anyway hes singing stars.

you said i must have been deeply hurt by him. yeah so am i but so what? who's gonna care about it? im not gonna act like its the end forever. whats heart breaking is that i climb it up all by myself. who can ever claim he or she was there when i felt to be needed? life isn't fair i always learn so. let me grow stronger for the life this cant be the end. you make me think of him, which i should have forgotten, and which i thought i have forgotten long time ago and too, make the tears drop. im just way too tired i guess, nothing much.

i wrote it like its my own experience. in fact some parts of it are.